A lovely rainy day

Its lovely rainy day back home.temperature between 18 and 30 degree Celsius.all world rainwashed and clean.somehow rain makes all things right.

A prayer

God, help us get through these difficult times,

I know they will not last, I know it is just a matter of time

I know it will make us stronger once we are through

But living through is just not easy.

Tougher yet is when you see a loved one suffering

Much more so when you are dealing with it yourself

Figuring there is not much you can do at this very minute to stop 

That you could at another point in time & space, but not just anymore

That all you can do is to sit & watch & wait for it to pass

to have faith & hope that all will be well soon 

rainbow in my balcony

There are good days and bad days......and then there are some really bad days when you are pregnant.today was one of those really bad days, really hot at 40 celscious.the house filled with still hot air and the terrace burning up in the sun.....it was a wonder the plants managed to survive at all!

We had had a rough day hauling up a used sofa we had picked up online.myt called the piece suboptimal....whatever that means.....and as I thought the piece was a steal at the price and worked hard at getting it I was pissed.

What's more we had just seen lovely places people lived in......lovely homes with huge green lawns & shady  tree lined pools....large pool houses with snooker tables in them....green well trimmed gardens that led to the large old fashioned homes.....living rooms that could easily fit more than half our place.the place could fit entire colonies of the underbelly of Delhi.......but the place was serene ....& empty!Just a family of four and their household help lived there....

I just knew life was unfair......after lugging the piece up to to our third floor apartment I had little faith left in anything at all :-) I wondered what we would do with the child on the
Way.......if it was fair to bring a child into the world when you did not even have your own pool :-)  i wondered if it would be okay...healthy......if it was twins that went undetected on the scan.......let's say I had lost it.....

And then it started....a mild shower.....growing into a reasonable downpour.....water dripping into the balcony, plants all shiny with water....smell of wet earth. and then a rainbow...the brightest I have seen ........right across the balcony.......and then it grew to a double rainbow.......almost got me wondering if it was a case of the undetected twins :-)

what are you today? :)

slowing down!

The body seems to be slowing down! did not feel it so far! guess its the 7th month working. The stomach hurts & physical incapacity annoys me.have always been able to do things physically more or less.cant really sit on a chair normally either...yes it is annoying.
Add to it familial controversies.Guess light at the end of the tunnel is the lighting product plan, lets hope it works out!