Is there anything at all that you can expect from life, can I expect to not be run over by a truck tomorrow, can I expect to have enough to eat tomorrow, can I expect to have more or less the same life as today, tomorrow.
The thing is the world can change upside down in a single day, when I wake up tomorrow if I wake up in my bed expecting the miracle of birth, is it short of a miracle in itself.....Yet quite often we look back at the roads not taken, roads that we believe would have led us to better todays, wistfully.
Is it the age, the 30s when we look around and realize we might not achieve quite as much as we thought we would, a decade back.
Or is it just money, the having or not having of it. G was here, promising herself a day when she would not have to look at grocery price tags before carting them, hoping to marry away her 4 & 5 year olds to boys settled in the US and be free some time. Wondering what it would have been if she had chosen the less conventional way & the Hindu boy from college, now settled in the US.
I wonder once in a while too what it would have been if I had gone the more conventional way n married a boy from my more affluent community or the numerous white men from faraway (hopefully) developed nations who were very available. I am often not sure what my decision would have been had I taken it today
Was it the fear of unknown or the idealism of youth that led my way. Or do people have hidden deep within them the compass that leads them to what is best for them, to their destinies, even if they do not know it yet.
Will me and G have our days of peace n happiness n contentment.
Guess its too early to tell........
